Explaining Autism and Other Impossible Tasks

I lay in my daughter’s bed, waiting for her to fall asleep. We’d finished reading (Green Eggs and Ham and Goodnight Moon), and I’d dimmed the light so she could drift off to sleep.

Francesca was babbling, scripting, talking softly in that endearing three-year-old voice of hers about what she did that day, what she planned to do tomorrow, and her general assessment of the world as she sees it, (“Birds eat worms. Yuck. YUCK!”) She was quiet for several moments, and I figured she had fallen asleep, my cue to slip away and finish the nightly chores. But then she spoke again, and her words froze my heart.

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Father and daughter circa 2006, around the time this article was originally published.

“Rocco has…the autism,” she said. Rocco is her five-year-old brother.

“Yes,” I said.

“He’s sick,” she said.

“Yes, Francesca. He is.”

“We have to help him…to make him better,” she said.

What’s Wrong With Rocco?

Francesca spoke, but the words were her mother’s. For the past week or so Francesca has been curious about the autism awareness symbols she sees around our house — the puzzle-piece t-shirt and necklace her mother wears, the bumper sticker on our car. Her mother must have explained it to her.

I knew this day was coming, but it still arrived too soon. How do you explain to a child that their sibling has autism?  Autism, which often has few physical characteristics and lots of inexplicable “weird” behaviors, is hard enough for adults to understand. How will a child ever get it?

But even at age three my daughter knows there is something different about her older brother. He doesn’t play the way other children do. After a recent visit with her typical cousin, Francesca remarked, “Rocco doesn’t play with me like Jackie does.”

There’s a long road ahead for Francesca, as there is for all siblings of autistic children. In a “normal” sibling relationship there are ongoing shifts in feelings of resentment, jealousy, embarrassment, pride, affection and companionship. When your sibling has autism—or any of a number of other disabilities, for that matter—those feelings are all magnified.

Sibling Issues, Lifelong Issues

Over the course of her lifetime, Francesca will undoubtedly face a number of other feelings concerning her “special sibling,” feelings like guilt, anger, shame, sorrow, and confusion. The sibling relationship is the longest relationship in a family, so sibling issues are lifelong issues that change throughout the lifespan.

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Francesca was filled with innocence and wonder in December 2006. I was bloated, depressed, and suffered from a terrible haircut. 

Lying there in the dark, hearing my daughter say the word “autism” in a tiny voice as delicate as blown glass, I’m filled with my own blend of anger and sorrow. Why does she have to know about this, now, at such a young age? And how will having an autistic sibling impact her when she’s five, ten, fifteen or twenty? How about when she’s forty or fifty? What does the future hold for any of us?

Suddenly I’m glad I dimmed the light in my daughter’s room. The look on my face, the tears in my eyes, might frighten her.

“Yes, Francesca, your brother has autism,” I whisper to her in the dark. “But we’ll help him. We’ll help make him better.”

“Yeah,” she replies dreamily, her thoughts already drifting to the next topic and the one beyond. In a few moments her breathing slows, and she is asleep.

I lie awake in the dark for a long time.

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Autism Etiquette for Dummies

I’m looking for a book about autism etiquette, but I can’t seem to find one. I felt there was a need for such a book, so I figured I’d write it myself.

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I’m a dummy! I can write a book for dummies!

Then I realized, I really don’t know squat. As the father of an autistic child, I find myself facing autism etiquette questions every day, sometimes several times a day.

And I usually get them wrong.

Who am I to write a book about autism etiquette? The best I can do is this essay – even that’s iffy.

What is autism etiquette?

It’s the way people act and react when they’re around people with autism. It’s also about the way parents react to their child’s autism, and how they present themselves and their child to the world.

For the most part, you can’t control the behavior of your autistic child — or any kid for that matter. (Though we are forever trying to change the behavior of autistic children through modification therapy, like applied behavioral analysis (ABA).)

A parent can only control the way they react to their child’s behavior. And a parent’s reaction is often the best guide for how others will act toward your kid. Lead by example.

That being said, sometimes my leadership is weak. When I’m out with my son I try to go with the flow, blend in, and not draw attention to his eccentric behavior. Maybe I should be more upfront with people.

“Sorry, my child has autism, and …”

But when — and how — do you tell people your child has autism? I’m not talking about family and friends. I’m talking about strangers, people you meet as part of your daily routine.

This is a more complex question than it seems, and, of course, the answer depends on the scenario. Autism is a strange disability on many levels, but primarily because it doesn’t look like anything. To the untrained eye, an autistic kid looks likes a regular child being a brat, throwing a tantrum, or acting weird.

How do you handle someone who’s watching your kid act up in public?

Here are some good suggestions I’ve found on the Internet:

“My son has autism. What’s the reason for your behavior?”

“Oh, I’m sorry, I hope he is not disturbing you. You see, he has autism, and he is still learning to …talk, wait in line, act appropriately, etc.”

“My son has autism, and he is trying his best. Please understand, he can’t communicate like you and I, and it’s very frustrating. It’s like visiting a foreign country, not understanding the customs or language, yet being expected to function.”

“I tell my son, ‘Stop, you’re scaring the straights.’ This has a two-fold effect: my son usually stops his odd behavior, and the people around us are made aware of their reaction.”

“When my son acts up in public, I just say as loudly as I can, ‘Please excuse me everybody, my son is having an autism moment.’”

“My son is autistic. Please keep him in your prayers.”

Those are all pretty good, and work in a variety of situations. Here’s one I came up with:

“My son has autism, so he might not say much, or react the way you expect, but I’m pretty sure he understands everything you say.”

Rocco’s receptive language is pretty good, and I believe he does understand most of what I’m saying. Either way, I want people to treat him like he understands.

Still, there are awkward moments. Once at the park, Rocco took the hand of an older girl, and led her to the see-saw.

“My son has autism, and he loves the see-saw,” I said. “It’s the up-and-down motion. He’ll keep you there all day if you let him, so feel free to stop at any time.”

The girl looked a little bewildered, but kept smiling. Did I say the wrong thing? Should I not have said anything at all, and let her figure it out? They see-sawed for a few minutes. Roc broke it off first, and that was that. In hindsight, I probably didn’t have to say anything at all.  He could have just been a quiet kid playing with another kid.

Be Direct, But Polite

My wife handles things differently than I. She addresses our son’s autism right away, and politely relates it to the situation at hand.

“My son has autism, so can you seat us at a table where we won’t bother anyone?”

“My son has autism, and doesn’t like loud noises.”

“Sorry my son is rifling through your shopping cart. He has autism.”

My wife’s approach is to the point, and gets the issue of my son’s autism out of the way. But I’m not convinced it’s entirely correct. I’ve read several anecdotes from autistic adults who felt their moms did them a disservice by always associating their autism with negative things (“he’s autistic, so he can’t speak, he doesn’t like bright lights,” etc.). They would have preferred their mothers occasionally refer to their “autistic brain power.” I’ll have to try that one sometime.

Need-to-Know Basis

I feel my son’s autism is on a “need to know” basis. If I feel it will help resolve a complicated social situation, I’ll tell people he has autism.  But sometimes you don’t feel like explaining everything to a layperson. And you definitely don’t feel like explaining it to some pinhead you pass in the supermarket, giving you the hairy eyeball because your kid is screeching like a banshee, or grabbing cans off the shelves.

Some parents solve this problem by putting their kids in “autism awareness” T-shirts. There are plenty of cute ones: “I’m not a brat, I’m autistic,” and “Think you’re having a bad day? Try having autism!” among them.

But the flipside to the autism T-shirt solution is that it can make autistic kids look like they’re wearing a scarlet letter. After all, you don’t see people walking around with T-shirts that read, “I Have Dementia”, or “Hug Me, I’m Bi-Polar.” Why should kids with autism have to, literally, wear their disorder on their sleeve?

My wife understands the arguments made by the anti-autism T-shirt crowd, but as she puts it, “It’s a good option if you’re going somewhere, and don’t feel like explaining your kid’s behaviors to everyone.”

Autism Etiquette … Basic Etiquette Will Do

What was the most important thing I learned while researching my autism etiquette book?

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These are a few of the wacky behaviors that make raising a child with autism an “adventure.”

That there’s no need for one…at least there shouldn’t be. Treat an autistic person with the same attention, respect, and dignity you’d show a neurologically-typical person. You might not get the response you expect. You might not get any response at all. But do it anyway. And keep trying. Be patient and persistent, and you and your new autistic friend will both feel better. Autistic children (and adults) want the acceptance of their peers, just like anyone else.

Lots of autistic people have trouble making eye contact, but that doesn’t mean you should. Look kids with autism in the eye, and greet them with a warm, welcoming smile.

Even though a child with autism may seem like he’s ignoring you, he’s probably not. Either way, don’t do the same to him.

Talk to autistic kids at an age-appropriate level. Don’t talk down to them. Just because a child with autism may have the vocabulary of a two-year-old, doesn’t mean he has the mind of one.

Kids with autism can be very sensitive to moods and behaviors. If you’re tense and nervous they’ll pick up on that, and they’ll be tense and nervous too. Relax and take the pressure off. Everyone will feel more at ease.

You’re the adult, and kids — both autistic and typical — look to you for social cues. So do their parents. Set a good example. The world will be a better place for it.

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